Have you ever gone a bit stir crazy?
Some say insanity is doing the same thing, over and over, and expecting the same results.
Name the most impactful piece of propaganda on your formative years. I'll start:
Got the club goin' up, on a Tuesday...
and in this case, the club is this website. Although, the intent is sort of to build it to tear it down because I'm growing increasingly restless from screens and technology. Not long ago, I would have internalized this cognitive dissonance, as I burned myself out trying to build something "valuable," but I've learned how to better embrace the conflicting parts of me. I feel much less pressure to achieve which allows me to enjoy the process a lot more. So, yeah, it might be a little self-defeating to learn coding or half-commit to some aimless project, but it could also be empowering to mysteriously challenge myself. Depends on how you look at it.
Maybe I'll get more personal as I go along, maybe not. The important thing is to express myself instead of thinking about expressing myself.
I've had enough of both for today. It's nearly 2AM. Too-da-loo!